Tuesday, December 20, 2005
zzz
this is gonna be a super long entry.
its gonna get kinda bored.
dun bother to read bah..
went to my old hse's block to sell ice cream ystd
and how i wished i could turn back time and continued staying there.
i stood in front of my old hse door,and though of everything that i once did when i was young.
how i played with my neighbours and stuffs like that.
i just cant erase my childhood memories off my mind.
it has been FIVE years since i moved away.
and things do change quickly.
really fast.
the block was repainted
and i still see my neighbour -kokhao.
he changed a lot.oh yes,he became a street magician.
wonderful.(:
and despite that,we still have a lot to talk about.
we were really klose frens since then.
closer than anyone else.
so you can knoe how much they (i had three close neighbours) really meant to me.
it's like,when you are young,you tend to show all your tempers out ; dun show feigns and dun talk behind one another's back.
but as you grow up,you will hide your feelings and you do care wad pple think abt you ; whether they like you anot .
when i was a child, i cant wait to grow up.
and now, yes.
bring me back to my childhood.
maybe i shud have just believed in the line " pple come and go. "
so that i wld not feel so sad abt it.
but whenever i came to the thought that "IF i din move hse,i wld have be with them all along thru my lyfe.i would know wad is happening to them all the while."
if you are gonna say"5 years are so short"
you are WRONG.
damn wrong.
wen i was young,my neighbours and i used to play soft toys in front of my door.
[becuz my mum din let them in (it's a bit silly) ]
and they could just sit down there for a few hours and started to play together.
i din rmb the contents,but we just renamed our soft toys and called them that name.
so when i stood in front of my hse door, i cant stop thinking.
as i walked to my neighbour's hse,there was a large area.
we used to sit there with a table and carry our dinner outside and share the food.
and after dinner it wld be monopoly time.
once,we carried a injured kitten up.
but OUR parents said tt it was dirty,and put it back to 1st floor.
i even rmbed tt we blew bubbles,threw paper frm the 1oth floor down to first floor.
flew our own hand-made kites at a windy afternoon to raining evening.
the time wen they got themselves some hamsters and they decided to give me one.
(and after i moved hse,i cant carry it along . i got damn upset abt it)
but got myself two hamsters after a few weeks.
and thats why you knoe how hamsters has got themselves in my heart.
the time when i got angry over stickers,and i just showed my temper out (and they feel super guilty,and was alryte after tt.)
the times tt we went jogging every sunday.
and we wld hold hand together while we cross the roads.
we went to another block ,another area,and found ourselves lost.
but we still got out in the end.
it's just all the silly but yet memorable stuffs that keeps flooding my mind.
honestly,i could rmb when i first met my neighbour,wad was my reaction.
they hid behind the walls (jus in case, my neighbour are twins)
and i just walked in and out of my door staring at them.
i was a bit out casted and din wan to join in any fun.
but their optimistic character does change me a lot.
and i din regret not saying gdbye to them when i moved my hse.
cuz i knoe,we will meet again.
there will be no gdbyes in my dictionary.
last time,i din really took part in klass activities unless im forced to.
i dun like crowd.
so everyday when sch releases,i wld get home and play wif them.
so i seldom have frens.
im quiet (dun laugh pple)
i din knoe why la,i just merely like to talk to them.
and,till p5 i moved away.
i began to be a part of the klass too.
and at p6,i was simply a rough and tough kid.
that's when i had my own grp of frens.
b4 that,i just indulge in my own world with my neighbours.
discussing abt wad trendy kids used to play.
pokemon , gameboy, sega ,playstation .
and to add one more thing .
LA BI XIAO XING (crayon shin chan) .
i like it alot.
and bought a lot of their vcds.
noe why?
they introduced it to me.
and how we used to spend the whole day watching tv.
and till now, i still love it.
plus there's meaning for me to watch the show too.
okay,enuf of my last times.
i cant bring it back tho,wads the point?
but i love typing my feelings here.
ya.and i talked to a ah ma(ex-neighbour too)
i knoe that she din recognise me.
but right after a while of recollection,she rmbed me.
and she smiled to me so warm and kindly.
and it really does tells me that age is catching her up after years.
had quite a long chat.
was nice.couldnt bear my tears when i was toking to her.
i really MISSED there.
but now,no matter how i talked about it.
my childhood will nvr befall on me twice.
maybe you'd think "JENMEY,you're seriously too emotional,over-reacted."
wadever, you name it.
i suppose everyone has got a SPECIAL someone in their hearts.
they may have gone,they may be still beside you,and they may come soon.
and that im quite glad i still kept in touch wif my pri sch frens.
EVAN,KEXIN,SIHUI.
thanks a lot and i hoped that i cld still go out often. <3
and seriously i was thinking,till we separated and go into poly-s or jc-s,will we be still keeping in touch or are we just gonna brush across one another w/o even a simple hello.
how i wish that i din have good memories :(
and it's YOU that makes my lyfe worthwhile..`
<3 jenmey .
♥
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